Thursday, December 10, 2009

With A Side of Ennui

I've felt really unmotivated lately, and that's not good.

I don't know if it's because the weather up here has been gross, or because I have a cold, or because some form of paralyzing fear has set in, but training feels like a chore lately.

I mean, getting ready to walk/run was never an activity that made me jump for joy, but I used to be excited to go train. This week I dread getting out of bed.

I've got way more time in the morning to train (because of my lovely holiday job), so it's not for lack of sleep or from exhaustion. I'm just feeling completely blergh about it all.

This feeling scares the crap out of me, of course, because there's a little less than 5 weeks left to go (holy poop!) and next week I'm supposed to run 20 miles!

I really need to jump start my system and get excited again. I mean, I am excited to do the marathon, I just feel very detached from it at the moment.

One thing I might do (which I've done before) is youtube/google the Disney Marathon; some past runners have recorded themselves running it, and seeing what they've done helps me to clear my mind about the whole race.

It also makes me a huge nerd, but hey, that's not a surprise at this point.

I suppose the simplest solution is just to get up, get out, and get moving.

Blergh.

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